Demented, Twisted and Beautiful

Now that I have a few entities under my belt, I think it is time to explain the name of this blog, and the subsequent worldview behind the creation of this blog. (one that will undeniably change and morph as I continue to write, think and experience life)

This idea is not a new idea that I attribute to my lovely yet tormenting melon. This idea of bad with the good, evil and goodness, chaos and order, all in coexistence has existed for millennia. You see ying yang (ying yang has many layers, this just being one of said layers) having existed since early 14th century BCE (and maybe even before that). That being said, the idea I wish to convey is not one of observation, but rather, one of application. This idea encompasses the fact that they do not only coexist with each other, but rather they exist because of each other. This fact brings me peace, and should bring you peace as well.

Like in the post’s picture, hoping to always be able to see the good in the world even when you are absolutely covered in shit, is not a fact, rather it is a skill. A skill that needs honed and perfected through realization and practice.

I come from a worldview of idiotic optimism, and like idiotic optimists before me, this skill takes time and practice to perfect. I dream of the day that I am in the shit and have the skills required to separate my sentience from the here and now, and experience life as a big picture and not only that. I hope to be able to zoom out from the pits of life and realign my perspective with idiotic optimism. This is not easy, especially when it’s painful.

Next time you are in the shit, zoom out, and if that doesn’t work, zoom out farther until you are at peace with where you are.

I hope to, as I continue writing and studying the metaphysical ideas of this world, to not go to a place of darkness, but rather continue to grow in the direction of peace, because peace is what I desire, not knowledge(could write a whole post about the difference and why I desire peace over knowledge).

This blog will not be organized, this blog will not make sense a lot, and even may leave you confused reading it. This is on purpose, and I have thought often about trying to make this blog a product that is more easily enjoyed. I have came to the conclusion that this is not my goal. I want this thing that I have created to be the truest representation of my brain, and as I sit here now in my office as a 23 year old, my brain is messy, I don’t know what the hell is going on most of the time, and that is what should come to fruition in my writings if I aim for this to be as real as possible.

BUT! in my state of confusion about why I am here, or what the answers are to these big questions, I still hope to everyday be able to see the beauty that exists around me in the world, in my relationships and in the way I conduct myself as a human being.

This life is demented, and it is often twisted, and likes to just absolutely beat the shit out of you for 12 consecutive rounds, but I hope to get to that 12th round, and still be able to sit in my corner and recognize the beauty in it all (and smile).

I encourage anyone reading this to comment criticisms before affirmations. Affirmations pump egos and stall progress, tell me why I’m wrong and be a vessel for my (and others reading this) continued growth.